it’s weird when you regress and avoid things and before you realize it months have actually gone by…i hate it when that happens and it keeps happening a lot lately.
There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise.
it seems like with apologies it doesn’t seem to matter in the end whether you’re sorry or not. it all seems to depend on the person doing the forgiving and whether they want to or not. i can say sorry a million times, but if you don’t want to forgive me there is nothing else to be done. in the end i suppose that it says a lot about you, our relationship, and how you really feel about me. you are probably right and i am probably wrong. at least i can say i tried and there are no regrets.
All this time
The Sun never says to the Earth,
"You owe me."
With a love like that,
It lights the whole sky.
—Hafiz (via lazyyogi)